Top of the World

So tonight Lincoln has duty, which means he left for work at 7 and will sit in a little office for 24 hours, then go to work tomorrow and come home tomorrow afternoon and feel like death. Nights he has to stay at work I get all bummed out and kinda mope around the apartment not quite sure what to do next. It's ridiculous but true.

This is the first overnight duty shift he's had since we found out he's NOT deploying and I'm realizing now how thankful I am that he's not deploying. Now that I can feel comfortable in the decision and not have to worry it'll change. I get lonely and mildly depressed when he's just gone for a full day...I dunno what I would have done for a year. I guess we served our separation time while he was in Japan, I really don't want to do that again if we can avoid it.

Today was weird, I don't love these afternoon baseball games on the west coast...b/c it means during breakfast I watch the Rangers (I eat a late breakfast, once I start eating I find that I like to continue eating so I put it off till about 10.)

Anyway, then the game is over around lunch...which today, I had the plan to get the grocery list together, make Lincoln dinner, take it to him, and then stop at the store on the way home.

Well that didn't happen.

I was sitting here watching tv after I'd just eaten some SmartOne and said to myself, "Alright, in about an hour I need to get this plan rolling."

Then I thought, "I could take a nap."

Next thing I know it's an hour later and I'd fallen asleep watching Law and Order: SVU in the middle of an episode and was confused b/c it was now in the middle of a different episode.

I was awake long enough to register that I'd dozed off...then I fell asleep again...next time I woke up, it was in the middle of a DIFFERENT episode causing a bit of confusion before I realized I'd fallen asleep again for another hour.

At this point I gave up on grocery shopping and decided to just make Lincoln some tuna helper for dinner and take it up to him.

I love sleep, I love the idea of naps, I even enjoy naps, but after wards I always feel hungover. Like I SHOULD go back to sleep...but now I'm not tired.

What a predicament.